How big is your NOW?
If your NOW is big enough to include voices in your head, or stories about other people or yourself or your circumstances, or replayed worries about the past or future...
you miss the present.
And the present is where life happens.
The present is where you can do things, change things, experience things.
With a big NOW you cannot slip sideways through the gap between moments to shift into new possibilities.
What can you do about that?
HOW LONG IS NOW?
How long is Now? It is a question worth asking (in my opinion). I never asked myself that until I got to meet "Now". As Martin Prechtel says in Secret of the Talking Jaguar: "I was not ready for Now", because Now is intense, Now is Everything and Nothing at the same time. In a small Now you cannot get attached, you cannot hate, your cannot own (anything or anyone), you cannot know who you are as a fixed identity and you cannot hold anybody as a fixed identity either.
In a small Now, you experience, you feel, you move, you speak from right now - not from concepts, not from stories, not from what happened in the past or what will happen in the future. It is a very different relationship to What Is then in a big Now.
How long is your Now? Your Now is as long as what you include in it.
There is a phrase in English: 'to have the time of your life'. It means to recognize, in this moment, that you are experiencing the best that life has to offer in every dimension. It means making your dreams come true, creating memories that will feed and delight your Being for the rest of your days, making legends you feel glad to recount about yourself.
Some people only use this phrase nostalgically, as in, "That was the time of my life," as if those times could never be matched or exceeded.
This letter challenges 'the best is past' idea based on seeing your own consciousness evolve.
If I ask, "Would you like to go back ten years?" most people answer, "Yes, I'd like to be ten years younger, but only if I could keep what I know now." Think of who you were ten years ago, all those things you did not know that you did not know about, but which were seriousy diminishing your life. Your awareness has evolved since then, yes? This is why I can challenge you to have a new 'time of your life' now, because you are a new you!
Try this thought-experiment: Imagine that your life is already over. That was it. It suddenly ends now. You did what you did. You learned what you learned. Give yourself a moment to let the whole thing wrap itself into one package. Take a deep breath and let that entire life slide into its grave. Enter the gap between lives.
In this gap between your previous life and your next life - which starts in a few seconds - what could you let go of that had been sucking your energy? Be specific. Yes, you can simply loosen your grip and let go of it. There is nothing to hold onto those things in this gap between lives. Which circumstances were painful, a waste of time, un-legendary, disrespectful of the honor of having been given a life to live...? Simply loosen your attachment to them so they can slide completely away. Take another deep breath.
What would you like to feel and say and do that in your previous life you suppressed and withheld? What could you explore or try that is important to you which you never made important enough to try in that previous life? This challenge is not about making a 'bucket list' to check off in the future... how tedious and dead. This challenge is: starting from this second on, to do whatever it takes to have the time of your life now.
You get a whole new life, starting now, to create ongoing expansive new times of your life. The time of your life, not your Gremlin's life. What will you do first? Do that! Doing that all the way makes everything different, including you. Doing something changes everything. You are different and the new you gets another new life! What is the next thing?
Yes, this ignites some new behaviors for you. It means minimizing your now. It means taking your voice back. It means entering experiential reality in your 5 bodies. It may even mean becoming a riftwalker, sword out, small now, observing yourself, feelings stellated, center on center, Gremlin on a short leash, moving before you make up reasons, serving Bright Principles and Archetypal Lineage. It also means celebrating with others who are willing to have the time of their lives.
Ask them to play.
See who is willing.